When I received an email yesterday from Brandy Cooke, the sister of slain fitness model Amanda Sazell, I was very touched by what she wrote about her sister and the grieving process which she is going through. Having now received Brandy’s permission to share them, following are the words she wrote:
I appreciate each and every one of you for listening to my story and for
allowing me to express my desires in ministering and speaking to the public
about this. You have all paved the way for us victims to really make a
difference in this world, and for that I am forever thankful. Every day
that goes by that I am not reaching out and helping just frustrates the heck
out of me, so I’m ready whenever y’all are. I feel like the more I talk
about my sister, the more alive her spirit will stay.Some days I’m not so well put together, and some days I feel like I can
conquer the world. I still sit in her closet and smell her clothes, and I
still wear a piece of her clothing or jewelry every day. I drive her car
now and I have yet to take the CD out of the player that was left in there
from her last ride. I sleep on her pillow because it smells like her hair
and I wear her favorite vanilla lotion that she swore made all the boys
crazy. My eyes appear more green when I look in the mirror every day
because her eyes were more green than mine; and I see the beauty and inner
strength in me she always saw that I never felt I had. My sister will be at
every platform I stand on because she will never leave my side. All of this
I bring to you in hopes that you all will understand the passion that I feel
in saving even one woman’s life from an abusive relationship. I want to
help make a difference in this world. I want to be her voice.”
As you can see, Brandy can and will make a real difference. God bless you and your family as you continue through the grieving process. May you all reach that healing spot one day soon – but take your time doing so. Time does heal wounds.

